As Salaamu‘alaykum and peace to all,

My mind is cloudy
My soul is empty
My heart is broken
My life is in chaos
My faith is shaken
My motivation is down
The road that I’m going through is stick
The mountain that I’m climb is high

I walk on the lonely road
No one standing by my side
No one to hold

Sometimes, I’m afraid of myself
Afraid if I’m loss my life
Loss what I’ve before
At the moment where my dreams
Still in the sky
Far away to reach
Far away from my hand to grab

When the life’s storm swept my life
I’m there alone
No one in front to hold me
No one at the back to support me
No one in my left and right
To bring me back to normal

After all, I’m the one who resist the storm
When I won, I thanks to Allah
For give me strength
To face the reality of life
But sometimes I’m failed
Slip to the wrong direction
Slip to same hole that I’ve slipped before
Doing the same mistake again and again
At that moment
I ask Allah’s repentance
By only His mercy and blessing
I can succeed in the world and hereafter

Trouble…I’m really in trouble

Then, what should I do?
I just need keep in my mind that
In what ever I do
Where ever I go
Allah is always with me
Even more closer than my veins
And I will never walk alone

In the name of Allah
The most beneficent
The most merciful
The most deserving of all praise
I pray for better days….

May the future bring the brightest day in my life..insya-Allah

::Written by Faisal
::12:24 p.m
::Monday,February 02, 2009

As Salaamu‘alaykum and peace to all,

To:

Barrack Hussein Obama Jr.,
The President of United States of America,
The White House,
1600 Pennsylvania Avenue NW,
Washington, DC 20500,

Dear Mr. President,

First of all, I want to congratulate you for being the first ever African American President .I did not watch full of your inauguration, because that time it was midnight in Malaysia and I felt very sleepy. But, I know many people all around the world were watched the ceremony because your presidency has become an icon for most of the people. Other than American people who watched your ceremony in the Capitol Building, there were thousand of Millions who watched through the television and internet. They want to be a part of the historical moment in the history of United States. Despite your country facing worst economic downturn since the great depression, your inauguration has come with a hefty price tag estimated at more than $ 170 million. This cost was many times higher than the inauguration of others President such as George W. Bush and Bill Clinton. These show your inauguration is the greatest in the history of United States of America.

Since the night you have been announced as the new US President last year by defeated John McCain, all the people over the world cheer and happy with the new Uncle Sam country’s leadership. From China to Mexico, from Antarctica to Arctic, and from Malaysia to Nigeria, they hope the change that you always speak out during the campaign will bring a new situation to the world, the world with peace and harmony contrary with the President bush’s administration that always try to spread bloodshed and make unilateral decisions.

Your historical backgrounds always make Muslims wonder. They always question whether your are Muslim or not. Even though, you had declared that you were never practicing Islam before, most of the Muslim, based on the fact that you were live in Indonesia during your childhood and descendant of Muslim family, they believe that at least you know more about Islam compared with the other US Presidents. Thus, you should be more concern about the Muslim world.

Recently, there was an attack on Gaza by Israel Regime. This is not the first time ever the Palestinian were oppressed, killed and injured by Israel armies. It has been normal for Israel to killed people and also normal for the world’s society to watch the same thing goes again and again on television, internet and newspapers. As a former lawyer and lecturer of laws, I do believe that you have deep understanding on the Palestinian-Israel conflict that has been going for more than fifty years. Unfortunately, after more than 1300 Palestinians has been killed and thousands more were injured, you did not released any statement regarding this matter. Your attitude to just silence on this issue slightly show your support to Israel ‘Holocoust’ on Palestinians. Only after you officially become the US President, you did show a little pity to the Palestinian’s suffered.

In the book about you that I read, you mention that you got inspiration from your mother. Even though your mother was Christian, she did not fully follow the teaching. She teach you about patience, discipline and to defend what is right without told you it’s relation to religion. For your mother, religion only the expression of the human cultures and can be used to control human behaviors. So,the only way to know what is right and what is wrong is solely by using rational minds. If that the principle that believe in, why when it come to the Palestine issue and Israel interest, you seem to be like an ignorant leader, just keep quit and let hundreds of innocent Palestinians to died. Most of them are childrens, women and eldest, even babies who perhaps just being life for few days before Israel bomb strike their house and died. Where are the humanity values that your mother teaches you? Where the entire spiritual words about liberty, opportunity, freedom and democracy that you always mention the campaign? Where the change that you always promote in your slogan “Change, We Need, Change, We can Believe”.?

It seems to me that your life’s principles are only working if the matters are not related to Israel.

If that true that you really want to bring change to the world, it should be done in all aspects. The hope of the people on you as A Black Kennedy should be reality. I hope that you will make change especially regarding the US policies in the Middle East. If I do not see any changes in year of your presidency especially in solving the Palestinians-Israel conflict, I will throw away all my full support that I give to you since the day I know you as the Democrat’s candidate until now as the 44 President of United States and I urge Muslims and all people who love peace, security, liberty, democracy and freedom to so. I end my letter with the quote from your Inaugural Address;

The time has come to reaffirm our enduring spirit; to choose our better history; to carry forward that precious gift, that noble idea passed on from generation to generation: the God-given promise that all are equal, all are free, and all deserve a chance to pursue their full measure of happiness

Thank you.

From:
A Muslim Youth; who loves peace,
Engineering Student,
International Islamic University Malaysia.

::Written by Faisal
::11:32 p.m
::Saturday,January 24, 2009

As Salaamu ‘alaykum and peace to all,

This visit has been conducted three weeks ago, but only now i decided to post it as my blog entry

@enstek(aenstek) basically is a new develop city which 70% belong to the TH Properties(Tabung Haji susidiary) and 30% belong to the Negeri Sembilan State Government.When it completed in next few years, it will consist Medical City, Lifestyle homes, human capital development, knowledge based industries and central business district.

One thing that really make me proud is how Tabung Haji has expend too much in many fields.From the government agency that has been established for the only purposes to bring Malaysian to Mekah for pilgrimage, now Tabung Haji has been involved in many areas such as plantation( TH Plantation), tourism, land property(TH Properties) and others. The public money that they save in the Tabung Haji is used for investment in those fields and give the benefit not only to the TH but also to the public.

Here is some of the pictures that has been taken during the visit,
For those my friends who dislike with my way to post their picture that has been taken with me, please let me know, i will remove it if necessary.

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::Posted by Faisal
::2.00 PM
::17/08/2008

As Salaamu ‘alaykum and peace to all,

i just finish my class this evening. saya rasa betul2 tired.semalam, i got the message from my sister informed me that my mother has been hospitalized coz of accident. i really surprised and worried. I can’t sleep last night. Even in the classes today, i cannot concentrate at all. Everthing went wrong. Started form biseparation, environment, genetic eng and GEN, all the lectures today like useless. Even though my body in the class, my mind was somewhere else,to my kampung.thinking about what will happen to my mother. even my uncle told me that her injuries is not serious and she will be released from hospital in 2 or 3 days coming, but i still worried since my mother already old.

I always advised my mother not to send my little brothers to school anymore ,but and let them go to school by bicycle since they can ride it. my mother always complain to me that, she cannot do heavy work anymore like previously and always felt tired even though if she work for few minutes only . i understand that. my mother have been working hard since her teenage time until now for feed up me and my siblings. Even, without my mother effort , i’m sure i will not be able to study in this university.

now, i’m thinking to balik kampung this weekend to see my mother and also my little brothers who not be able to go to school since the accident. the motor already “rosak” coz of accident, and money need to repair it…….

i’m really fell sad now, not only because my mother , but also the behaviour of my father and my elder brother…

just started few days ago, i fell really happy with my life, some changes that i have done…. but now that happines is overshadow and vanished by have happened in my kampung..

Probably, what my GEN lecturer said is true. if u fell happy, beware coz the sadness will coming soon. And , if u fell sad, be ready coz the happiness will coming soon…happines and sadness will always come together alternately…..

That’s all for this time…
w’salam

Written at 6.00 pm
06/08/2008

It was on the last Friday. I just finished my asr prayer in the Mosque. Before that, I was attending the talk delivered by a iium lecturer on the topic of nakba(catastrophe), the Palestinians exodus from their land. It has been 60 years since 1948, were Palestine were forcibly ejected from their homes during Arab-Israel war, the land now known as Israel, an illegal state. After asr prayer, I was on the way to my room when I suddenly stop after saw an organization chart of the one of the famous club in this university on the billboard. That club has been established since 2003 for the objective to promote good deeds and also organizing the lectures on Islamic talk. I even attended the talk organized by this club last week, the talk delivered by Imam of Assyakirin Mosque, KLCC. Once again, it was very good talk. It has been a normal for me to pass through the economics kuliyyah , either for purpose to go to the class, mosque, library and central or going back to my room. So, every single new notice on the billboard along the way will be attracting my attention. One of the things that attracted on the billboard is the picture of my friend, who held a position in that club. But, it is not a surprised because from her appearances, from my point of view, she really has credibility. She’s really a good muslimah, always wearing baju kurung and hijab and never wears jeans during the lecture. She’s always sat in front; listen carefully to the lecture in the class.

Sometimes, I wonder how can some of my friends can be involved in that such society or club. I mean that, they have been given responsibility to certain position, mean people have trust on them. As for me, I always think it quit difficult for people to trust me. I have been involved in some societies before, but then I quit because I think people don’t have trust on me. Probably, a lack of communication with the other people make people have less confident on me. Even, I always doubts about myself, did I’m really can take the responsibilities for certain task? Did I’m really a good guy? Did I’m really practicing my religion completely? Or just a guy who always proud to be muslim but not completely follow my religion? Nauzzubillah….

The book I have been read a couple days ago probably give me realization that whatever I do, I should be sincere and so that people will have some believe on me. In whatever we do, we should remind ourselves we are khalifah of Allah that responsibly not only to ourselves but also to others. If you think that just by performing 5 daily prayers, fast in Ramadan, and doing other pillars of Islam are enough to make you a khalifah , probably you are wrong. Being a khalifah not only mean lead yourself to a right but also the other people.

As Prof Dr. Muhammad al’Mahdi written in his book, there three main responsibilities as khalifah ;

1) To perfect yourself

2) To perfect society

3) To perfect the physical world of space and time

To restate it more simply, the three responsibilities of khalifah of Allah are

1) To make yourself good

2) To help others become good

3) To make the physical worlds good(clean and beautiful so it is pleasing to Allah)

We might probably easy to perfect ourselves in accordance with Islam, but to help the other become good, it might be difficult. This is because we are now living in the society which some people think that we cannot interface other people life or privacy. But, the question is what kind of privacy if it’s not in line with Islamic teaching? What kind of privacy that if we let it happen, it will destroy our society and religion? Can we just close our eyes when we see a maksiat occur in front of us? Can we just keep quit when our friends backbiting the others? Can we just let our roommate sleep in morning when we know that he still didn’t perform a subuh prayer?

Probably, those entire things seem a small matter, but the fact is, we will ask on the Day of Judgment if we didn’t make any effort to help them.

Think about it.

The three responsibilities that mention above actually cover absolutely everything a human being can do. And so everything a human being is supposed to be doing as khalifah of Allah is making goodness prevail – in ourselves, in society and in the physical world. And that is the totality of man’s responsibility in this life –until he enters the spiritual world, in the next life. Thus, we have as our total responsibility to bring good to ourselves, to others, and to the physical world.

If you look to the three responsibilities, two of them have worded “ to make” and one of then have been worded “ to help”. The reason why Prof Dr. Muhammad al’Mahdi wrote “ help other to be good” and not “ make others be good” is that while it is fair enough to make ourselves good and the to make physical world good , it would no be fair to ‘ make’ others good. If Allah wanted to make all of us to be good He would have done so. So, since Allah chose no to make us be good we should not impose that goodness upon others.

Think about it…….